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Thank You very very much for all your greetings thorugh notes and comments today. I am overwhelmed and blessed.

It is very hard for a Digital Artist if Computer problems arises. We have to deal with viruses, malwares, spywares
and program errors in a daily basis. But the biggest problem would always be when a digital artist have no computer to use for
work anymore. Hardware malfunctions and damages are the biggest obstacle along the way like motherboard damage,
harddisk and RAM errors. Blue Screen of Death is also always our Nightmare. Imagine, it happened to me most of the
time. Mixed it with Life Complications like marital issues, fiscal crisis, health, disaster management and others. The result
will always be downward spiral, frustration and depression. I have been trough all of that and up to this moment , I 
am STILL paying so dearly.

Perhaps, my past decisions has been bad . I will review all of that, and I am learning a lot. My Life  has been in
constant struggle and my present is connected to my past.

I allowed myself to become a tool and not what I deserved to be, that's the sad realization every time my birth date
comes along. I become a shadow of my past self of temporary success and long time failure.

Freelancing has been hard for me, paying bills was haunting me weekly. And I have to look for immediate fund
to prevent my family from house eviction each time.  Living in a 3rd world country does not help at all. Maybe I have to 
re think if I can still survive from my sinking ship or gave another try? Or get back to corporate world ? My paradigm for
reality needs to be self evaluated. Nevertheless , Art is still and always my sanctuary. Freelance is a way.

One thing for sure, for the people who are close and knows me very well. I am not giving up. I will never gave up.
That means I have no where to go , except drawing. heh. I LOVE DRAWING! It's my Life.

I am saying this because it's my birthday and each time, I feel that I need to reaffirm my existence as an artist.

Thank you so much for supporting me and being patient to me, specially for those who I still owe artwork.
If only I could control the delays,  I would. But my life and health has been a constant mess. But I guarantee, I 
work hard. Really hard.

Today, I celebrated my birthday by producing this artwork:

Heroes of the Storm by johnbecaro

Done the grayscale around 3 days. The colors is around 20 hours with Adrenaline rush and the drive of challenge.
 This artwork is my first bday gift for myself. I have been longing
to draw Starcraft specially Kerrigan or Any Blizzard
Heroes. After so many technical problems 
and life up's and down, I am still here drawing. I'll post more artwork in my gallery
The 4days work for this was a good tune up for me and my new motherboard. It went well as well. Also
 I did a livestream of the graycale work here:…

Thank you very much again for understanding me. I want you to know that I appreciate you a lot
and I will continue to live. No matter what. For Art. For my family.
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Perfidus Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015
Any update on comission? :P
johnbecaro Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Hello. What's your email again? :)
Perfidus Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015
johnbecaro Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Alrighty, I'll scan my sketch for you if I get the chance in 2-3days. :)
Enforcer84 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday John, 

I sympathize with the problems you've been having, my own bout of unemployment only lasted 3 years and I got in some education and a career change. I haven't really picked up a pencil and drawn in almost 10 years it seems. Closer to six I guess.

You're a great artist and I hope you make it through.  
Aerysdilot Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Happy birthday and stay strong!!!
Chwen-Hoou Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015
Stay strong and keep your chin up. :manhug:
Blazer-mx Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015
It's pretty nice to read those words you put here :), it's admirable the way you feel and think of your work, greetings for that my friend :D.

I'm happy to see that you had a wonderful day on your birthday, may you have many more ;).

Keep up your amazing work.
dark-magician-nikoru Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're super talented and you should never give up! You're strong and you'll get through any problems! Your family and friends are there to support you! <3

Happy birthday John! :cake: :party:
dirtscan Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015
You're welcome and happy birthday!
johnbecaro Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you.
ArdorinRay Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015
You are a great and talented artist, and I always look forward to seeing your work. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing it with us. Happy Birthday - may it be the best year EVER for you.
johnbecaro Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you. I appreciate that people still appreciate my works as is. :)
ArynChris Featured By Owner Edited Jun 24, 2015
:hug:  Don't let your spirit die, friend.
johnbecaro Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you. :)
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June 24, 2015